Grace after laziness…

So last night I was a bit lazy.  To my credit, I had worked a full day (8:30am – 5:30pm) plus had to deal with the kids who had a 1/2 day (JJ & Mari had 1/2 days, Kaity came home around 4:30).  So it was a lot for me and I couldn’t get any dinner on the table.  And after a full days work and kids running around all day, I really didn’t feel like doing much of anything – just lay down and savor the moment that tomorrow (today) I was a “free” woman from work! And after getting a pizza pie for dinner, that’s exactly what I did.

Now, I KNEW that my husband ALSO had a full day of work… but while I’m home working in the A/C all day, he was out sweating in the hot sun from 5:30am until around 7:30pm. I KNEW that he wouldn’t be too happy about pizza for dinner, but I could counteract that by at least cleaning up a bit. If he came home to a beautifully tidy home, I could give him cereal for dinner and he’d be happy (uh, maybe cereal is a bit of a stretch, but you get what I’m trying to say)!! He just wants to come home from a long day to a clean home… and that’s not what happened.

So when I heard the car door slam shut, announcing my husband’s arrival, I braced myself for the consequences of my decision.  Thank God for my husband, he didn’t argue with me like I probably would’ve done with him.  To a point, he understands that I’m 38 weeks pregnant and the fact that I had a long day… to a point. But I felt the tension and the silence that lay heavy in the house that night.

I honestly could have gathered up the kids and had them help me clean up the house a bit, but in my laziness I just didn’t do it.  So today I woke up feeling a bit guilty… but I know that God’s grace is for me today.  As I wrote yesterday, today is the beginning of my new life as stay at home mom / wife.  I will not let laziness overtake me today!!  My day is planned with a set of goals to accomplish (including cleaning & cooking!) and I will not let my laziness take over!

Thank God for His grace and knowing that each morning is a new day to start over in it!



Start of a new adventure…!

I’m starting a new and exciting journey in my life and I think the best way to document it is to just blog about it.  This new blog is just for me, just for fun, and just because.

So today is my LAST DAY at work (at least temporarily)!  As of Monday I will officially be on Maternity Leave for the next 3-4 months (hurray!).  I’m super excited because I’ve never stayed home with my kids (Kaity, 10; Marissa, 7; Jeremiah, 6) for more than 2 weeks – plus the fact that we will now have an infant to add to the mix.  Of course I’m nervous and my husband is expecting a lot from me as far as the up-keeping of the house, but I’m ready for the challenge.
My goals?

  • Grow as a Christian Woman…  I want to be the woman God made me to be and not anything like the one I am currently.  I want to give up my life to Him and not be this selfish, quick to anger, lazy, self-seeking (ok, ok, you get the picture!) woman!  I think this is my biggest challenge!
  • Grow as a Christian Wife… I need to put my husband first at all times and respect and love him the way he needs me to.  This includes things like housework as well!
  • Grow as a Christian Mom… My children are quickly growing and they really need a true mom in their lives.  I have always worked over 40 hour weeks and that’s not fair to them.  I need to be here for them and teach them and love them and just be a mom to them.  I think part of this goal is really knowing what it means to be a 100% Full Time mother…
  • Grow as a Christian Friend… I’ll be the first to admit it – I’m not a good friend!  I’m not a people person – I’ve never been one!  But God made us to fellowship with one another and I know that this is a great blessing that He has given us.  So I need to open myself up to embracing friendships and learning how to become a good friend to others.

I think those are my main goals for now… tomorrow is my first day of this new life!! God help me!